The inequity of this world is unbelievable

The standards are almost unachievable

And yet help is unreceivable

We don’t hold people up to the standards they should be.

We can’t walk away from it

Yet we always find a reason to find a misfit 

f this shit.

the tv is playing

is this normal?

to have these thoughts?

not cohesive 

not coherent 

i feel like my brain is bent

and broken

i need the golden token of life

why is it so different than others?

the tv is fading

is it not?

my mind plays tricks on me

i dont know whether to trust it or not

is it me?

the tv is gone

blurry

         crying

                  dying

am i? 

feels like it. 

am i worth this? 

look at your reflection

dont do a thorough inspection 

Nevertheless, you do. 

i can tell how you feel

my ego is as slimy as an eel

reel in your thoughts. 

they say you’re supporting to be in the happiest years of your life

it’ll take more than a knife to discourage me. 

this is more than just highschool pe

american history..

when will there be a change?

am i that deranged?

when i look in the mirror theres a blurred image. 

a void of sadness

an inconvenience in peoples lives

an inconsistency 

the people i love tell me i’m not

but over thinking is like a constant clot

a murky thought

be yourself, they say

but what if that’s not the right way

what if today’s not my day? 

it’s never my time

i want some lemon-lime sprite

i’ll do it just to spite

i’ll walk into the light

hopefully 

im not just a void of sadness

im also a void of everything 

cha-ching $$$ (says my therapist)